Failed efforts

I have been trying to read these notes for the last three months.
everytime i feel, oh i should study, i take it up, read the same
pages, same theory, same examples and after reading the exact same
portion i give up. is it natural to get bored at the exact same
position. i have been able to read only 8 pages in the last three
months. that's pathetic at best.

and on top of it, i have to finish about 2k pages in the next three
month. strange but true fact. how i m going to manage is anyone's
guess. will probably have to force things on me, although i pretty
much know i m not used to doing well at things forced upon me even by
myself. strange life.